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Rudd boiiii

Rudd boiiii

Man just let me be me

Man just let me be me

Smile tells the truth but it also tells lies. I hide the feelings I can’t show inside. Locked up in a cage doing jail time, while I go around thinking what’s really on my mind. Going crazy and insane tryna figure out why

Smile tells the truth but it also tells lies. I hide the feelings I can’t show inside. Locked up in a cage doing jail time, while I go around thinking what’s really on my mind. Going crazy and insane tryna figure out why

True

True

So sick of being misunderstood and my name being in people’s mouths enough is enough !

My kisses and smile will drive you wild !

My kisses and smile will drive you wild !

Emotions

Honestly I can’t even remember the last time I cried for myself…no I take that back I do but I shed tears for less then a minute….last night I couldn’t hold it in I thought I would be fine after I spoke to him thinking shit would be alright but as soon as that FaceTime call ended I couldn’t hold it in no more…I just question why me? Why do I have to go through this why couldn’t he just be the perfect being I seem impending my eyes. I’ve done so much in my power to try to prevent this from happening but it did big time. Usually I would be ready and willing to just up and leave no questions asked but…I don’t want to lose him at all. I never wanted to stick to someone so bad besides Richard 3 years of that nonsense but I don’t regret it I lived it and I learned from it. But I know this is different Joey does more for me and he connects more with me. Every moment spent with him is pure happiness. I don’t ever remember feeling like his towards anyone this strong. I’m not scared to face the challenges to reach my dreams I’m not scared to fail but I’m fucking terrified to lose Joey absolutely terrified. I just can’t see anyone in this world connecting and giving with me the way we vibe. The way I can just be myself and he just adds on to the thrill he doesn’t judge me he doesn’t think I’m Ed and even if he does then its us being Ed together. I want to keep him around but I don’t want to get hurt. Even though it already happened I truly believe he’s worth getting hurt for and I honestly don’t care about what anyone has to say about it. The only way I will allow myself to walk out of his life is if he ask me to. And a part of me tells me he doesn’t. Which is all I need at the moment. I wonder what the conversation is gunna be like.

Mamalove and I at her get together

Mamalove and I at her get together

Back on my tumblr I need this to vent and not to be judged by my choice of words

my beautiful mother, my rock, my everything !

my beautiful mother, my rock, my everything !

Dance show right after one of my performances !

Dance show right after one of my performances !

Day before Graduation Class Of 2012 !

Day before Graduation Class Of 2012 !

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